palestine/israel has shattered me...maybe you can relate? now I am broken open and all the words are coming out about all the things, so I am letting them come...here goes nothing...yikes...
Nov 29, 2023·edited Dec 1, 2023Liked by Rachel Kann
Thank you so much for sharing these words. For avoiding the cheerful words, which may hurt you more, let me share my personal stories. Currently I also suffer from the world and my life. Some of the news -especially about the newborn babies in Gaza- made me feel broken and made me wonder "why" to the humanity. In addition, My 98-year-old grandma has been having some health issues these days. When she is in the bad time, she accuse me for meaningless things, when she is in the good time, she is the person as she was used to be, and her generosity and sweetness, which are the true parts of herself, make me even more get hurt. Living with family in disease is like building blocks, which are endlessly knocked down. I sometimes want to yell back at her, but her eyes barely prevent me to do so. Even in her worst time, she watches me in the way just like a child watches her mother as if she can see who I truly are, and I feel it is impossible to lie to the person who is about to close his/her life. Yes, I know the "knocking down the blocks" part of my life will end by her death. Thinking about myself, I always try to be a good person even tough my true self is not so much as good as I pretend to be. Some people may say this is a great aspect of me, but I have to agree it greatly comes from my ego. Now I try to reduce my ego and take care of my grandma with my true self. I give her herbal medicine, acupuncture -as Mr. Wyner says, acupuncture can be therapeutic for some people, , kind words, and anything can heal her inside. It is difficult to explain my ego and unconditionedness, which are both true parts of me, but I believe you might understand it. I am afraid it is little bit too long and too personal, I really appreciate your sincere words.
Oh Mayu, I am so sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. I am sending you comfort and strength. Your joyful words would never hurt me. Thank you for reading.
Love to you, Rachel. Thank you for sharing and deeply sharing your thoughts and your feelings and your experience of all that it going on for you and for me and for many. I have family near Tel Aviv, so I have been shaky myself. For me, the world is a frightening place, especially now. I, too pray for peace and liberation for all who look for it, want it, hope for it. Love love and more love.
Oh Audrey, sending love back to you. I know you feel things so deeply and I am sending comfort for the shakiness and the fright. May your entire family stay safe! Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Thanks for inspiring me to write! I too have been holding on to so much, and also need to give myself permission to let it tumble onto the page. So much to unpack and process right now, loved hearing your thoughts.
Thank you for your truth and bravery, appreciated much in these times. I am glad to hear you are basically ok there. Acupuncture was a bit helpful for me. Interesting to see the masks off. Surprised to realize not everyone believes a shared objective truth exists or is valuable. Not everyone believes different cultures produce people who think in different ways. Not everyone believes morals are real.
Dear David, thank you so much for your words here and for taking the time to read mine. It is a time of surprise about varying relationships to objective truth, I concur...and I hope everyone can be more open in the ways you describe...
You have mirrored many of my thoughts and feelings my friend. Take heart. As my dear Rabbi and friend said to me in getting on in these dark times it's one hesed at at time that keeps the light shining. Your contributions to us reflects your light and your love. Don't give up. Hanukkah is almost here when we remember the miracle of the lights. Keep your light shining. Keep your substack active. Much love to you.
Sylvia, thank you for letting me know that there was mirroring happening for your thoughts and feelings...it is potent and powerful...and yes, one hesed at a time...and now, Hanukkah is imminent! I promise not to give up, and I see your light shining, too...thank you and Hanukkah Sameach...
Hiiiiiii! Thank you so much for saying that. NGL, you were one of the people on my mind/in my heart as I tappity-tapped out these words. Sending respect...and so much love right back to you.🙏🏽
Thank you so much for sharing these words. For avoiding the cheerful words, which may hurt you more, let me share my personal stories. Currently I also suffer from the world and my life. Some of the news -especially about the newborn babies in Gaza- made me feel broken and made me wonder "why" to the humanity. In addition, My 98-year-old grandma has been having some health issues these days. When she is in the bad time, she accuse me for meaningless things, when she is in the good time, she is the person as she was used to be, and her generosity and sweetness, which are the true parts of herself, make me even more get hurt. Living with family in disease is like building blocks, which are endlessly knocked down. I sometimes want to yell back at her, but her eyes barely prevent me to do so. Even in her worst time, she watches me in the way just like a child watches her mother as if she can see who I truly are, and I feel it is impossible to lie to the person who is about to close his/her life. Yes, I know the "knocking down the blocks" part of my life will end by her death. Thinking about myself, I always try to be a good person even tough my true self is not so much as good as I pretend to be. Some people may say this is a great aspect of me, but I have to agree it greatly comes from my ego. Now I try to reduce my ego and take care of my grandma with my true self. I give her herbal medicine, acupuncture -as Mr. Wyner says, acupuncture can be therapeutic for some people, , kind words, and anything can heal her inside. It is difficult to explain my ego and unconditionedness, which are both true parts of me, but I believe you might understand it. I am afraid it is little bit too long and too personal, I really appreciate your sincere words.
Oh Mayu, I am so sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. I am sending you comfort and strength. Your joyful words would never hurt me. Thank you for reading.
I erased the herbalist part because I respect your self-boundary. Now I start learning acupuncture and herbal medicine, and it helps my family a lot.
Mayu, I am so happy you have found help for your family through acupuncture and herbal medicine!
Thank you so much for your kind words! It mades me strong. I wish you are having a calmful rest of the year.
Love to you, Rachel. Thank you for sharing and deeply sharing your thoughts and your feelings and your experience of all that it going on for you and for me and for many. I have family near Tel Aviv, so I have been shaky myself. For me, the world is a frightening place, especially now. I, too pray for peace and liberation for all who look for it, want it, hope for it. Love love and more love.
Oh Audrey, sending love back to you. I know you feel things so deeply and I am sending comfort for the shakiness and the fright. May your entire family stay safe! Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Thank you so much, Rachel!
I read everything and every word you send, so when you are up for writing,
know that I will be reading it, thinking of you and sending love, strength, empathy
and compassion.
Thank you so much Audrey, and I am sending all of this back to you. And Happy Hanukkah!
Happy Hanukkah, Rachel. May there be many miracles for all of us this Festival of Lights.
Thank you so much for each and every word. I am so glad you found a way to get them out onto the page and that doing so has relieved the shaking.
Thank you for reading each and every word, Mike, and for your kindness and support.
Thanks for inspiring me to write! I too have been holding on to so much, and also need to give myself permission to let it tumble onto the page. So much to unpack and process right now, loved hearing your thoughts.
Oh Michelle, that is wonderful! Yes...let the words tumble out...thank you so much...
Thank you for your truth and bravery, appreciated much in these times. I am glad to hear you are basically ok there. Acupuncture was a bit helpful for me. Interesting to see the masks off. Surprised to realize not everyone believes a shared objective truth exists or is valuable. Not everyone believes different cultures produce people who think in different ways. Not everyone believes morals are real.
May you be safe and well.
Dear David, thank you so much for your words here and for taking the time to read mine. It is a time of surprise about varying relationships to objective truth, I concur...and I hope everyone can be more open in the ways you describe...
You have mirrored many of my thoughts and feelings my friend. Take heart. As my dear Rabbi and friend said to me in getting on in these dark times it's one hesed at at time that keeps the light shining. Your contributions to us reflects your light and your love. Don't give up. Hanukkah is almost here when we remember the miracle of the lights. Keep your light shining. Keep your substack active. Much love to you.
Sylvia, thank you for letting me know that there was mirroring happening for your thoughts and feelings...it is potent and powerful...and yes, one hesed at a time...and now, Hanukkah is imminent! I promise not to give up, and I see your light shining, too...thank you and Hanukkah Sameach...
Thank you for posting this. It is beautiful to know someone who shares so deeply of themselves.Sending so much love to you.
Hiiiiiii! Thank you so much for saying that. NGL, you were one of the people on my mind/in my heart as I tappity-tapped out these words. Sending respect...and so much love right back to you.🙏🏽
Dear Rachel,
I temporally went off Within/Without owing to my payment issues.
However, I all listened your latest prompt journey about fruits. It's amazing!
(Please ignore my comment if you think it is not relevant with this article.)
Hopefully my issues will be resolved soon!